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Name: Christina
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Metro: Champaign-Urbana
Gender: Female


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Monday, November 26, 2007

Kinda sucks...

These days....kinda suck.

I feel so alone.

No one is helping me towards my goals...I have to get this application in for transfer with NO ONE to pay for it. And of course, I can't pay for it myself...There doesn't seem any real point in getting a job if I'm going to be going home in less that a month...At this point...I don't know if I'll be able to transfer. I'm really upset =/

I also...really miss Aly. I know that...we weren't the best of friends...We weren't even really that close...We had theater together in 11th grade and then we saw each other out in front of the school quite a bit last year. But...still...you know? It's like Mary...I can't believe they're gone. And Ryan, her little brother, too. That has got to be so hard on their parents...-sigh-

I am glad that Katie and Marina are fine.

They really need to put a light there. Maryland government is fucked up. I could've lost four friends to that same intersection what...3 years ago? Thankfully they're all okay. But seriously. What the hell is wrong with them?

I just feel...alone.



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By Lamb of God
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Cold Days

        I ran through the front door, my nose red from the cold, and my arms wrapped around
my body, trying to keep warm. I let out a cold breath, one last puff of white air coming
out of my mouth. When I inhaled again, a few seconds later, I was welcomed by warm
air going into my lungs. I moved my arms from around myself and closed the door behind
me. Then, I moved my hands to unzip the black leather coat I was wearing and let it slide
off my shoulders, revealing my tight-fitting, striped grey and blue sweater. I dropped the
coat on a hook hanging on the wall by the door and pulled the long sleeves of my shirt over
my hands, still a bit chilled.

            The house was dimly lit, but there was enough light for me to still see. The Christmas
tree stood next to me, infront of the large, front-room window. The little multi-colored lights
that were spun around the branches glowed quite brightly in the dark. There were brightly wrapped
presents sitting on the floor, under the tree. In the next room, over the halfwall, the fireplace was
illuminated, the fire burning slowly. I walked over to it and stared down, the vision of the hot
flames jumping around in my eyes. No wonder mom wanted me to rush home…, I thought,
almost getting lost in the flames. She left the fire going…

            I blinked a few times, breaking the hold the fire had on me. I looked around the room and
what I could see of the room I had been in only a minute earlier. Why does this place seem so…
lonely and unfamiliar?
I looked down at the floor for a few seconds, then turned to go into the
kitchen. When I clicked the light switch, only one of the four bulbs lit up. I looked up at it for a
few seconds, but went over the counter. The kettle was still on the stove, where I left it when I had
to suddenly run out the door. I picked it up and filled it with cold tap water from the sink and set
it back on the burner. I reached across the stove and set the dial on medium-high, then went over
to a cabinet to set a mug on the counter. Once that was done, I left the kitchen and went back to
my room. The heat of the house was getting a little too warm for a sweater.

            When I opened the door and turned on the light; I had to squint. The light was bright; I wasn’t
used to it, seeing how the house was still dark. I went into my closet and pulled out a black miniskirt,
white opaque stockings, and a black shirt with 3-quarter sleeves that barely hung off my shoulders.
After I had quickly slipped into the clothes, I pulled my long, raven black hair into a loose ponytail
and let it fall over my shoulder left shoulder. I looked at myself in the mirror, that was nailed to the
wall, next to my bed. I noticed more angles in my face than I usually do; I’d gotten thinner than I used
to be. It was showing. The shadows on my pale skin were dark, almost making me look sickly. The
black eyeliner around my dark eyes made my face look sad.

            There was a faint whistle, coming through my closed door. I turned, quickly, and opened the
burgundy colored door. Once I stepped out, I turned off the light, pulled the door closed, and walked
back into the kitchen, where steam was rising from the kettle. I grabbed a towel with one hand and
put it on the burning hot handle, then moved the kettle to a cool burner. I dropped the towel on the
counter beside the stove and turned the glowing burner off. When I looked back at the pot, I sighed,
realizing I shouldn’t have put the towel on the opposite counter. I reached over the stove to pick the
towel up and placed one hand on the stove, my fingertips touching the hot burner. I gasped and stood
up straight, looking at the redness forming on my fingers.

            Before I could go over to the sink and put my hand under cold water, I heard a light knock
on the door. I looked up and started walking towards the front room. Since the Christmas tree was
in the way, I could look out the big window to see who it was, like I usually do. I unlocked the door
and opened it to see someone, taller than me, standing in the doorway, with the screen door propped
open against his back. The hood of his hoodie was up, covering most of his face in shadows. His hands
were stuffed in his pockets and his breath was white, puffing out from his mouth. I felt the cold from
outside on my chest and moved out of the way quickly to let him come inside. Once I had closed the
door again, he removed his hands from his pockets, revealing his black fingerless gloves. They had a
skeleton hand design on each glove. He moved his hands up and pushed his hood off is head. His long,
dyed black hair fell over his shoulders, and his silver lip piercings reflected the colored lights on the tree.
He unzipped his hoodie and slipped it off, then dropped it on the hook next to my coat. He removed
his gloves as well and placed them in the over-sized pockets of his baggy, black, cargo pants. When
he stood up straight, he looked down at me.

            “Kayla…” His voice was deep. It sent chills down my back and I shivered a little. He put
his hand under my chin and moved my head up gently. I felt his eyes inspecting my face. When he
was done, he released my chin. I threw my arms around him, hugging him tightly. He wrapped his
arms around my waist and held me against him. I closed my eyes.

            “I missed you, Jeremy,” I said, quietly.

            “You know I missed you.” He released my body and and took one of my hands in one of
his. He put his other hand on the back of my head, his fingers slipping into my hair, and pulled my face
close to his. My heart started beating hard in my chest and I closed my eyes. He pressed his lips against
mine, hard. I felt the cold metal of his piercing against my skin but kissed him back. After a few seconds,
he bent down a little and picked me up, one hand on my back, then other support my legs. I giggled
and wrapped my arms around his neck.

He walked over to the fire-lit family room, with me still in his arms. Carefully, he sat down on
the floor, infront of the fire, leaned his back against the couch, gently placed me in his lap. I moved my
hands away from his neck and laid my head down on his chest. I smiled softly and closed my eyes again,
relaxing. He pulled the thin hair tie out and let me black locks fall over my back. He put one arm around
my waist, holding my tightly. His other hand petted my hair lightly.

“I’m so happy to see you, Jeremy…” I couldn’t see his face but I could tell he was smiling.

“Merry Christmas, Kayla.”


Saturday, October 13, 2007

Nyah

    It's starting to get cold outside. Tonight it's supposed to drop down to 38 degrees.
Right now it's 45. I'm sitting here with my warm laptop on my lap, talking to John
and typing this, and watching a movie with my mom and stepmom. My hands are
cold but for once in this house my whole body isn't. I'm actually quite warm in a long-
sleeved, thermal shirt, jeans, and socks.

    I know I say I hate winter, but that's not it. I love winter and hate the cold. I love being
able to sit down infront of a fireplace or a kerosene heater with a mug of hot chocolate;
maybe even look out the window and see snow falling. It just makes me feel warm
and cozy inside. It...comforts me, I guess. I'd love to sit down in my home in Maryland, in
front of the fire, at night with the lights out, and just talk with someone, or maybe cuddle and
watch a movie...

The avatars this time are a lot of Nightmare Before Christmas and Halloween themed.












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Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Feeling: Emotional

Hey guys--

I know this is unusual for me. I know I dont usually update a lot anymore. I've just been so busy with school and other shit lately.

I miss you guys, a lot.

And I'm really thankful that I have friends like you guys. Like Cocco and Tony, Pat, even though I don't talk to him as much anymore, Caitlin, Janet, Scribner, Bails, Vinnie, Laura, Cullen...and even Jean-Luc, although he's more on the newer side. You guys have always been there when I needed you and it's a relief for me. I hope you all continue to be my friends, always. I don't know what I'd do if I lost you.

And just so you know-

I leave Illinois on December 22nd and come back January 9th. I'll come visit the high school, don't worry about that. Also, if you want to hang out, tell me so I can plan on it.


Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Shoot Me

Seriously.

Just shoot me.

I made a mistake.

I hate myself right now and my life.

But, I guess I can mend, eventually.

 I just...don't know anymore. I haven't cried, yet. I told myself not to...but it's only a matter of time until the pain really catches up to me. It's been a while, I'm in due for a good break-down.

Thanks, you guys(you know who you are) who are always there for me. You're a big help ^_^. You help keep me sane.

I might have found someone who can help. And he's out here in Illinois, albeit...3 hours away. :( Oh well.

<3

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dance dancingintherain dontcry friendstrangers ganster give up
gorgeous haha hardore heh hello help
kiss likeboys magical memories nevergiveup pirate
recism rightagain rock on snape snapeshampoo stoked
takemethere torn truefriends wooo bflat word



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